Eyes wide open

The moon spills through the window

I’m painfully aware of your presence

I wish you were as painfully aware of mine

But the space beside me might as well be empty

Because you understand nothing of what I feel

I watch you as you lie there sleeping

Blissfully unaware

The pain of loneliness comes flooding back

And all the air leaves my chest

Cause in the worst ways now

You take my breath away

It’s almost like you love me

With the way you always stare

The way you hold me in your arms

It’s almost like you care

Silly me for hoping that I’ll

Wake up yours one day

Truly yours

With you wanting me the way I want you

Holding on too tightly

Silently begging for more

Waiting for that moment I have the strength

To walk right out that door

Always afraid

Of you not caring or needing to know the real me

It plays the scene constantly

Forever in my mind

It hurts to want you

And I can’t seem to let you go

Forgetting you won’t happen

But I tell myself to try

I’ve put in my everything

I’ve been broken by your lies

Sometimes I wish I could hurt you

As easily as you seem to hurt me

And I hope you can see that

Doing this isn’t easy but

I know I have to go

Could’ve been so perfect but

Now we’ll never know

And it’s almost like you loved me

Almost like you cared

One more time I wish you’d take me there

Forgive me when you wake up

But I’ve got to walk away 

Because you stole my breath from me

In all the worst ways